I Can't Escape

It's before midnight, so I'm ok right now. However, they never leave me alone these days. I can't get away from the laughter or the rest. Every thought is pain, every moment is haunted by the hurt in my past. I don't want to be so damn lonely, isolated, and down, but it doesn't really look like I have a choice. Usually, if I'm around people, I can keep it in more, but lately that doesn't even work. I'm tired. I'm so weary of it all. I want love, understanding, and a clear mind; I think those things will always evade me, no matter what.